Thursday, April 21, 2011


47 days left to the challenge. I wonder where I will be then. It would be awesome to be under the 300 lb mark! Each decade of pounds is a milestone for me. When I think of needing to lose 155 lbs, it seems impossible, but looking back at where I started, maybe not. I mean, I've lost 68 lbs from my highest weight 2 yrs ago. I am getting close to that century mark and it's kind of scary. I don't know why. Will I be the same person then? I don't think so. I feel the differences in my personality already. I am more out going and feel more confident in myself. I don't feel as lazy as I used to. I was getting to the point, that it was all I could do to get to work and come home. I would sit and have my children get things for me. I would fix dinner and then I was done for the day. I don't do that anymore. I have more energy so I do more for them and myself. If this is what 68 lbs feels like, what will 223 feel like? OMG, did I just write that?? When I first started this, I had my goal set higher on my tracker so that I wouldn't see over 200 lbs to go because I just couldn't face that number. Now I am waaay under that amount and it feels good! WHEN I reach my goal, I will be less than half of myself!! That's mind boggling to me. Ok, I need to stop scaring myself!!

I read a comment that Allan made to someone saying to look at food that you love like it is killing you and that is so true!! He hit the nail on the head with that one! It's like being in an abusive relationship, it will wear you down and make you weaker and weaker, then it will eventually kill you, not just spiritually but physically, as well.

I am really curious about Phase 6. I hope with his "follow or get out" on this one, that he will give us more details before it starts, that way we can know what we are getting into and those that can't follow it will just not start, instead of dropping out. I know it is discouraging to him for people to quit and maybe this will prevent that.



  1. I so agree with you, I get so jazzed with each decade of pounds lost. I rather look at each decade versus a century of pounds. I think that is the perfect way to describe it. (I wish I had thought of it). Your new picture is really good. You are looking awesome. Keep up the great job!

  2. I did that tonight, we went to Culvers for the kids and got free ice cream with coupons. My kids felt "bad" for me because I wasn't having any and I just kept thinking, "that stuff will kill me!" I even have it as a once in awhile treat for them! I've been curious about phase 6 too. Phase 5 seems to be going well but for a few hiccups. Today was hungry day. :-)

  3. I am late offering condolences, but sorry for your loss. I know what grieving a loved one is, and it sucks major suckage. Like someone stuck something hot and sharp right into your chest and is just ripping things left and right and not having any pity. Only God can really comfort in those times, cause it pretty much takes tons of doses of grace.

    I consider each decade crossed into a celebratory thing. Love focusing on 10 at a time. AFter that, the major milestones are the decreasing categories of obesity. I can't wait to get to 2 major numbers for me: 199, cause it means out of the 200s, natch. And 186, cause that means out of obesity, and into "overweight". I plan to dance up a storm and whoop and holler and partay when I hit both of those. :D

    Let's break down a bunch of decades...and hit goal.

    Please post a lot about your progress on the P6 preview. I won't be doing it-which hurts a bit--but I can't promise to adhere to a plan (especially sight unseen), and especially if we're going into liquid dieting. don't wanna do that (though I like whey shakes for a quickie when there's not time to eat some days).

    Will look forward to seeing what you report in terms of progress, feeling, satisfaction, exercise....

    Nite, babe...