47 days left to the challenge. I wonder where I will be then. It would be awesome to be under the 300 lb mark! Each decade of pounds is a milestone for me. When I think of needing to lose 155 lbs, it seems impossible, but looking back at where I started, maybe not. I mean, I've lost 68 lbs from my highest weight 2 yrs ago. I am getting close to that century mark and it's kind of scary. I don't know why. Will I be the same person then? I don't think so. I feel the differences in my personality already. I am more out going and feel more confident in myself. I don't feel as lazy as I used to. I was getting to the point, that it was all I could do to get to work and come home. I would sit and have my children get things for me. I would fix dinner and then I was done for the day. I don't do that anymore. I have more energy so I do more for them and myself. If this is what 68 lbs feels like, what will 223 feel like? OMG, did I just write that?? When I first started this, I had my goal set higher on my tracker so that I wouldn't see over 200 lbs to go because I just couldn't face that number. Now I am waaay under that amount and it feels good! WHEN I reach my goal, I will be less than half of myself!! That's mind boggling to me. Ok, I need to stop scaring myself!!
I read a comment that Allan made to someone saying to look at food that you love like it is killing you and that is so true!! He hit the nail on the head with that one! It's like being in an abusive relationship, it will wear you down and make you weaker and weaker, then it will eventually kill you, not just spiritually but physically, as well.
I am really curious about Phase 6. I hope with his "follow or get out" on this one, that he will give us more details before it starts, that way we can know what we are getting into and those that can't follow it will just not start, instead of dropping out. I know it is discouraging to him for people to quit and maybe this will prevent that.