Monday, July 18, 2011

I'm back!!

Sorry, guys! Didn't mean to worry y'all!

Life has been insane! Isabella's first birthday was last Sunday and she learned to walk and I got to see it! With me working and only seeing her on the weekends, I was so afraid that I would miss that!!

Work has been crazy busy!! I am working for both agents right now! Kitty, the girl taking my place with F, was in the ins licensing class M-Thur and worked in the office on Friday. I was sitting a my desk (now my ex desk) with 2 monitors, 2 phones and each agent's websites on the different monitors! Now, I am training the girl replacing me and also helping F's insurance producer and working for M all at the same time!!! This is my last week with F, it will be strange being in the same office with him and not working for him, I had a customer come in today and ask if he could change his policies to M so that I could continue to service his policies!! Made me feel good!!

Ok, diet time!! I have not done well at all for the last 2 weeks trying to do the liquid part. I would get home and just lose it. I started on the 1200 calorie phase today instead. I was not working the plan, even though the plan works, I was not working it. I just can't seem to get into the place mentally that I was before to be able to do that, so instead of just fighting it and getting back into the vicious cycle of shame and guilt, I am switching plans. This one does work for me and has a lot of variety. Today was not a typical eating day. This is what I had:

Breakfast - lite/fat free vanilla yogurt and a snack cup of diced peaches in light syrup, 140 caloires
Snack - coffee with cream and sugar, 200 calories
Lunch - lite/fat free blueberry yogurt, sugar free cheesecake pudding, 150 calories
Dinner - Marie Callendar's Lazagna, 350 calories
Snack - 2 cups watermelon, 92 calories

Grand Total - 932!!

I didn't intend to eat so light today, but I just didn't have time for anything today. I went to Wal-Mart after work and stocked up on diet friendly foods. This week will continue to be extremely busy so I broke down and bought some frozen dinners, but I made sure that they are all less than 300 calories. I also but salad stuff and put together a salad for tomorrow's lunch.

Now for the really bad weigh in!! OMG! I am back up to 335.9!! I mentioned in my last post that I was not hiding anymore, so there it is. I wanted to cry, but I have been eating like crazy and not trying. That changed this morning when I stepped on the scale. Thank God that I have put the brakes back on before I gained it all back. It depresses me, but I am going to update fitnesspal and my ticker. No more lying to myself by not changing them.

Time to go get ready for bed, see y'all later!!