Wow!!

Has it really been a week? It has flown by!

This is my first week getting off at 3 and working strictly for M. I am loving it!! I might not once I get my first check with the lower hours, though! But M has already asked me if I want to increase my hours and I told him to let me enjoy the time off and recover from my 5 yrs of a high stress boss!! He seems so concerned that I not get overwhelmed and that is such a good feeling! He actually told me one day last week, that he had been wanting me to come work for him for years and he was glad that it was finally happening. I asked him about going in at 8am instead of 9 later on when I want to increase my hours and he laughed and said that he was flexible! I can't tell you how blessed I feel with the ways things have turned out! I told a couple of people in my office yesterday (with a laugh!) that I felt so good and that it was nice to have gotten fired and then get a raise!!

I've lost about 6 lbs in the last week. I've not really paid much attention, which is strange because I am usually very anal about weighing every day! I will do better keeping up with things this week.

I came home and cleaned the fridge, took everything out and wiped the bottoms of all the jars and cleaned the shelves, took out the drawers and washed those as well.

Well, I am tired and going to bed! I hope that you all have a great night!

Food

Busy at work today, but it is starting to slow down a little which is what I need.

Food today has been good.

Breakfast - scrambled egg and egg beaters mixed, 153 calories

Snack - 2 coffees, 200 calories

Lunch - salad, 366 calories

Dinner - homemade pizza on flatout bread, 350 calories

Snack - watermelon, 92 calories

So how you doin???

food

Today I did much better. Food:

Breakfast - protein shake, 200 calories

Snack - 2 coffee, 200 calories

Lunch - salad, 366 calories

Dinner - grilled chicken breast, grilled onions, mash potatoes, 540 calories

Grand total - 1206

Weighed 331 this am. Down 5 lbs, let's me know how much I was really eating!!

Slimmer This Summer Goals

1. Survive this week at work!!

2. Stick to plan, 1200 per day!

3. Exercise 30 min, 3 times per week!

4. No binge/depression/emotional eating

5. Eat only when I am hungry and stop when satisfied!!!!!

6. Encourage others in the challenge!!

I'm back!!

Sorry, guys! Didn't mean to worry y'all!

Life has been insane! Isabella's first birthday was last Sunday and she learned to walk and I got to see it! With me working and only seeing her on the weekends, I was so afraid that I would miss that!!

Work has been crazy busy!! I am working for both agents right now! Kitty, the girl taking my place with F, was in the ins licensing class M-Thur and worked in the office on Friday. I was sitting a my desk (now my ex desk) with 2 monitors, 2 phones and each agent's websites on the different monitors! Now, I am training the girl replacing me and also helping F's insurance producer and working for M all at the same time!!! This is my last week with F, it will be strange being in the same office with him and not working for him, I had a customer come in today and ask if he could change his policies to M so that I could continue to service his policies!! Made me feel good!!

Ok, diet time!! I have not done well at all for the last 2 weeks trying to do the liquid part. I would get home and just lose it. I started on the 1200 calorie phase today instead. I was not working the plan, even though the plan works, I was not working it. I just can't seem to get into the place mentally that I was before to be able to do that, so instead of just fighting it and getting back into the vicious cycle of shame and guilt, I am switching plans. This one does work for me and has a lot of variety. Today was not a typical eating day. This is what I had:

Breakfast - lite/fat free vanilla yogurt and a snack cup of diced peaches in light syrup, 140 caloires

Snack - coffee with cream and sugar, 200 calories

Lunch - lite/fat free blueberry yogurt, sugar free cheesecake pudding, 150 calories

Dinner - Marie Callendar's Lazagna, 350 calories

Snack - 2 cups watermelon, 92 calories

Grand Total - 932!!

I didn't intend to eat so light today, but I just didn't have time for anything today. I went to Wal-Mart after work and stocked up on diet friendly foods. This week will continue to be extremely busy so I broke down and bought some frozen dinners, but I made sure that they are all less than 300 calories. I also but salad stuff and put together a salad for tomorrow's lunch.

Now for the really bad news...my weigh in!! OMG! I am back up to 335.9!! I mentioned in my last post that I was not hiding anymore, so there it is. I wanted to cry, but I have been eating like crazy and not trying. That changed this morning when I stepped on the scale. Thank God that I have put the brakes back on before I gained it all back. It depresses me, but I am going to update fitnesspal and my ticker. No more lying to myself by not changing them.

Time to go get ready for bed, see y'all later!!

Day 2

I did good all day yesterday until I got home from work. Tues night, I always go to Tammy's and we have girls night. Usually we watch The Biggest Loser, now we just talk, read, play games on our iPhone...

My husband was not expecting me to be home, I was running late for Tammy's and he brought home Popeye's Fried Chicken, I had some. Oh boy, was it good!! But I am paying for it today, my ankles have turned into cankles! I have had so much water today to try to alleviate it, that I have spent half the day in the bathroom.

I've done better today. I'll do even better tomorrow.

Hope you had a great day!!

A new day...

I got the shock of my life when I stepped on the scale this morning. It is scary how much I have undone so quickly!!! I don't want to say what I weighed but it was definitely a wake up call. So I am back on the liquid diet today, starting off strong. Got too busy to have my snack this morning but that's ok, I think the coffee I had should count since I have gone back to using sugar instead of nutrasweet.

Food so far:

protien shake

coffee

water

lunch will be 2 bouillon cubes in water, 2 lite yogurts. I couldn't find my lunch bag this morning and fudgsicles don't transport well in 90 degree weather. I didn't get a chance to make my pudding and portion it out. I'll do that tonight so that I am better prepared. I have some watermelon and also some baby carrots here at work for snacks.

Eat smart!!

Happy Birthday, America!!!

235 years of independence from the British!! Its seem just like yesterday that we were throwing all that tea into the Boston harbor! What a riot!

Ok, here is the plan!

2 weeks on the liquid diet, BUT, I will be having fruit every day so that my digestive system doesn't shut down. I didn't handle that well last time. I was in a lot of pain and constipated. I figure probably 1 cup of watermelon, cantaloupe or grapes or other fruit twice a day along with the liquids. I bought most of everything I need for this on Sat except some of the fruit, I have some, but not 2 weeks worth.

Then I will switch to the 1200 calorie, 100 carb menu. The 1200 calorie menu from P4 worked best for me and since it was a constant amount of food, it was much easier for me than P5 was. I have to learn good habits first, I have to learn how much to eat at each meal instead of having high calories days followed by low calories days.

I WILL be posting what I eat, whether it is on my plan or not, no more hiding when I cheat. If I cheat, I cheat and I will post about it. I NEED to post about it or it won't work. I learned that the hard way. I will not let anyone tell me what I can post about and what I can't anymore, that's why I started this and that is what I am going to do.

This is my diet for the next two weeks, starting tomorrow, MY independence day!!!

Breakfast - low carb/sugar protein shake made with unsweetened almond milk (lower carb and calories than skim milk)

Snack - 1 cup of fruit

Lunch - 1 cup of chicken bouillon made with 2 cubes, 2 no sugar added fudgsicles, 1 sugar free pudding or lite yogurt (which ever I feel like on that day)

Snack - 1 cup of fruit

Dinner - 1 cup of chicken bouillon made with 2 cubes, protein shake made with almond milk

Snack - 1/2 cup 2% fat cottage with 1 pack of Truvia added to sweeten

Lots and lots of water all day long.

I did this for 2 weeks before but without the fruit and it was not so hard. This is basically what a gastric bypass surgery candidate would have for at least 2 weeks before surgery to clean out their intestines to prepare for surgery. I want to clean out but not stop the function of my intestines.

So, now here are my goals for the next week of Slimmer this Summer challenge:

1. Stick to the plan

2. Exercise at least 30 min 3 times this week

3. Drink my water

4. Read my daily devotions...daily and not all at once toward the end of the week!

5. Continue to look for a new job, not really diet related, but stress related and that ends up affecting my diet.

I hope everyone has a great 4th of July and remember to pray for our troops!

Whoo hoo!!!

It's Friday!!

Today was insane!!! We had a great time at work until about 1pm when F finally showed up at work! We laughed and played and actually got a lot of work done.

F talked to me at the end of the day and told me that he and M had talked and decided (if it was ok with me) that they would share me after next week. I will work 40 hours total for them but not 4 hr and 4 hrs, it will be a blended day where I work for both of them at the same time. How that will work, I have no idea!!! Then on Sept 1, I will work only for M. We'll see. If I get a job somewhere else, I am sooo out of there!! At least this way I will not be out of a job.

I need to go to the store tomorrow and pick up some groceries for my diet and for the family. I am going to start the low calorie tomorrow and then the liquid on Tues after the holiday, I think it will be easier that way. I will only do the liquid for a week or two just so that my stomach will shrink and it will be easier to have less food. Then I will transition to the low calorie, moderate carb, you can't really call 100 carbs low carb. If that doesn't work for me, I will start backing some of the carbs off. Summer is the worst time of year for my ankle to swell. The heat and humidity doesn't help. I am going to try and do more swimming this summer and that should help. I love that my gym has pools, I just need to go use them.

I finished one of the dresses (except for the buttonholes) for Isabella, well, I still have the panties to do. It has turned out so cute! I'll get pics up as soon as I fin

ish and can get her in it!!

The fabric for the pockets is the same fabric for the panties. The fabric is much prettier in person!!